grrrr!!

so, someone who is supposed to be one of my "best friends" is a total fucking jealous bitch! she is and has been (unsuccessfully) trying to lose weight ever since i have, and even talked shit and laughed at me when i first decided i wanted to lose weight. so now every time i mention the gym to her or something similar, she ALWAYS decides to mention my lack of a job. i don't know if it's to make herself feel better, or make me feel worse. i mean i care about not having a job, but not really because everything my parents have ever asked from me i have done, but that's another story.

what really pisses me off is the fact that someone who is supposed to be a "best friend" is such a fucking bitch! and it's been like this forever! she is a habitual liar and lies about anything and everything, along with talking shit about me and others behind our backs and she is just REALLY FUCKING DUMB!

and i know i should get her out of my life, etc etc, but we have been friends forever. she is really fun in person, but i don't think i can handle her trying to bring me down all the time!! i need fucking motivation, not to be guilt tripped by someone who:
1) doesn't financially support me (therefore has no room to talk about my lack of a job), and
2) likes to bring others down (i mean i do this too, but only about fat strangers and NEVER to anyone's face! i could never hurt someone's feelings intentionally... especially one of my "best friends", like she does!)

anyway, i just got back from the gym (3 mile on elliptical intensity on 7, 1 mile jogging, and 30 mins lifting, not much but i have to do some errands today) to get rid of some anxiety, and when i get back i have to be berated by some 200 lb. bitch.

UGH SO ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!! bowl & shower time