thank you everyone for your comments. honestly, from the bottom of my shriveled heart, i appreciate them so much. while my situation sucks, it's comforting to know that i am not the only person going through such things. then i watch shows like intervention & celebrity rehab and i know that people with addictions are damaged and usually that damage is caused by other people. how fucked up is that? anyway...
so i really let myself go over the break. a few weeks ago i got really fucking sick and stopped going to the gym and started eating regularly. then finals started and i was still sick and making excuses to not go to the gym. then my (bitchy, fat- see HERE) friend came and visited me for a week. of course i told her (3 times) to bring gym clothes, but when i asked where they were she said she left them at home because i would be busy with finals... okay... most terrible excuse ever.
so therefore, you see, i have gained some weight. but yesterday my fat jeans were tight and i decided that i cannot let myself balloon up again. so yesterday i had only a grande non-fat latte and diet dr. pepper until about 7 pm when my mom made me a dish i requested. i had a few catfish nuggets and about 2 cups of white rice, nothing crazy. i was doing well until at 1 am, when i smoked a few bowls by myself. i was getting hungry and couldn't stop thinking about eating.
so i made the mistake of eating a banana (~80 cal), which turned into a small rice crispies treat (90 cal), which turned into a Hershey's bar (210 cal), which turned into about three 100 grand mini chocolate bars (270 cal), sweet potato fries (130) and a faux chicken patty (130).
yes, i am thoroughly ashamed of myself, but i did lose 1.2 lbs. i'm not going to mention what my weight is at the moment but i shall keep you updated. but now i'm going to catch up on some blogs and get into my daily routine of... doing nothing. i want to go back to school so bad. i need to go back to the gym and just be in my own apartment. of course i love my family, but none of my friends live in my hometown anymore, besides 1 and she has a kid and a job. the rest live further away and it would cost me $$ I don't have to go see them!
anyway, ciao for now my friends :)
Hello girls as you may have notice I have a new blogger once again!! The first time I was clumsy and deleted it the second time however my blog was reported and shut down!! Unfortunately for the person who reported me, they are unaware of my DETERMINATION and MOTIVATION to make a POSITIVE change!!
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I hope you all are having an AWESOME week and sorry I could not be there to share it with you. However I am back and hope we can support each other =)
“Life's ups and downs provide windows of opportunity to determine your values and goals - Think of using all obstacles as stepping stones to build the life you want”
1.2 lbs loss ?! Awesome. I feel like that sometimes about the friend interfering with weight loss but its usually my bf who's interfering lol. Sorry about the mini binge :( Stay awesome and strong! xoxox
ReplyDeleteYour friend would piss me off so much. Good job getting back on track though : )
ReplyDeletewell done on loosing, thats great <3
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